fucking sins

When shits happens.

2010-01-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Okay I know my blog is damn dead. Thats the reason I decide to blog. Ryan is a sleep and hubby is in camp. Anyway, today I get the chance to take observer. Where Im going to decide if Im going to take that person to be my business partner. It reminds me last time when I went for my second interview. hahaha. It was scary laaaa. lols.

As about life, Im so nag out with a few things that is going on in my life over and over again. I just dont understand why I give people sugar and they return me with salt. It hurts so much when poeple just dont seems to understand me. I know I need to understand others as well but I just cant take it when they dont treat me right.

Now, whatever happens. I wont waste my time thinking about it anymore. What I'm gonna do is go straight to your face and say this,'' Im Done with everything.''

Fuck!

Weekends

2010-01-13T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hey Everyone! I would like to wish myself a belated 19th Happy Birthday! It falls on last week 7th January. Fast har? Anyway, the plan to zouk was cancel. Wth! But no problems. I shall head to one of the party pretty soon if only Im free. hahaha. Now Im very busying juggling personal matter and my business career at the same point of time. Its hard for a young mother ya know. But of cause I need stay focus at all times to ensure Im at the right track.

Here is some of the pictures taken..

French Connection Watch from babylove!

This is what written in the card.

I was soooooo happy to receive that present from hubby. I never expected a gift like that. I love it alot. And yes, Thank you so much hubby! I really appreciate it alot. I love so much okay. That day was well spent with you. The movie was great and of cause I hope you like that Guess jeans as well. I really hope we spend more time like that just the two of us kay dear? Not forgetting last Monday. I actually went to NUH for my second check up and after which we go shopping along with Ryan. Oh my, I love my weekends. And my family!

That's all people. Will update soon ya! Cheers!

Honeymoon cum Holiday!

2010-01-02T08:51:00.003+08:00

Hey Everyone! I must say its been a long time since I last update yeah? Oh yes, Its 2010 already baby! How have you guys been doing so far? Great? Its superb for me. Good job, good pay, good friends and a good family. Yup, There is still ups and downs. And I'm sure there is always a way out to each and every problem right?

Anyway, My Honeymoon with Babylove at Batam was great. I've upload some of the pictures at fb. Do check it out. The place is excellent. I love it! The scenery is so beautiful. Guess what? The spa is super shiok man! You can see the pictures at Faiza fb cause that picture is with her.

Last but not least, Ive been spending most of my time with babylove cause he will be returning to camp this Monday. Yes, he is 8-5pm but you cant expect him to wake up like 5 in morning to book in right? Its at selatar for god sake. Far kan? Goodness!

And hell yeah, I cant wait for 7 Jan baby. Guess why? huhu!
Okay goodbye!

Baik kapa!

2009-12-11T13:48:00.003+08:00

I wont be around next weekend. So dont bother to call me cas I'll be away from Singapore. I cant wait for next week while other cant wait for Zouk Out tmr evening. Damn. I wanna go! gaaaah! Too bad for me I guess but its okay. I'll have fun next week and the fucking following week! yessss! Hubby will bring me to Zouk on 26 Dec. Thanks to Obek for that Idea. hahahahha. Here I come baby!

Lets put aside the fun thing but the most important now for me to find a way to success. I wanna earn more than Paris Hilton. Can? Then buy everything that she owns. hahaha. Okay lame. Anyway, I almost gave up in life but now I know that I gotta stand strong for my one and only son, Indra Ryan. I guess sandra is so right. Everything happens for a reason. If I dont bump into her the other day. I might not know about this Markerting & Advertising job. Thanks alot babe!

Well, thats about it. Have a good life people. =]

So happy like CB!

2009-12-04T10:50:00.003+08:00

I have loads of temptation nowadays. I want this. I want that. I know I gotta control. I dont know why I just wanna club so much. I miss dancing. I swear. I cant believe my career for 11years flew away just like that. I wanna be back up on stage dancing. Sigh. Even if I have the time. Im not even fit to dance. Due to the operation that I gone thru. gaaaaaah!

I've resign from Yacht21. No longer working there. Currently Im into Markerting and advertising. Not sure if I want to work with them for long. I wanna work with my aunt. Just so you know I have enough stress now. I need a job that I dont have to think about it when Im home. And of cas an office hour job. Ryan is only 3months old and He needs alot of attention from me.

I will be meeting Gup later in the evening to catch a movie, like finally! hahahaha. 3 days more to our 1yr 2months Monthsary. Sad to say that he is having his attachment on that day. People always say that after marriage everything will be very different. Yes, I agree. But usually people will say it negatively but not for me. I can feel the love from gup in and out. Really! huhu!

Will be heading to Batam Villa Resort for a so call honeymoon. hahahaha. Okay, people might be thinking why Batam sak? hahaha. Ive seen the picture of that resort. Its actually not bad okay people. Not that rabak la. But I dont know eh? Maybe in picture is different then reality. hahaha. okay la people. I'll update more soon alright. Toodles!

After so long.

2009-11-26T07:17:00.007+08:00

My aunt recommended me at her company. I don't know if I can get that job at Stamford tyres. Now I'm still waiting for them to call me for an interview. My working place is not suitable with me. The time, the pay, management and the people there. Some are okay but certain just keep talking about people's flaws. Hey baby, speak for your self okay? Seriously, I don't know who to trust besides my own.

Eversince Ryan starts to talk (in baby language). I can keep playing with him and forget about going to work. hahaha. I'm really glad that my son and my husband is with me. Now I know that I'm not alone with them. I love my family loads!

Well I guess thats about it. Hubby has gone to work and I'm working later at 11am. Boring! gaaaaaaaah! okay readers! Goodbye!

Brad Fox Rex.

2009-11-11T09:45:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for not updating. Yes, am so busy. Currently Im looking for another job. I need an office hour job. I find it hard to manage time working under retail line. gaaaah! How I wish I got myself an admin job. Sheesh!

I have tons of pictures to upload at FB but I still dont have the chance yet. Sorry people. I'll upload those picture soon kaykay? No promises when but I'll upload them one fine day. heh!

Okay the pictures above was taken last month. hahhaha. Lame kan? huhu! I meet up with them at my old private school. Its so sad that I cant finish up my O. But its okay. I shall grab my chance one day.

Till then. Goodbye!

Working life.

2009-11-03T17:00:00.002+08:00

I work almost everyday. I only got 2 days off. I got house chores and Ryan to take care of. Im so shag. Thanks to Pam for giving me a half day today. Planned to get an mc just now but I was late. So no Mc & byebye to my public leave. Idk whats wrong with me. I hardly walk or even stand. My backbone is killing me. I need to sit most of the time. This thing has been on & off for a week already. Still, I dont get the chance to see a doctor. My next check up at NUH is on the 11 January next year. I think I need to consult a doctor now. arrgh!

Yes kitt, im super duper busy now. I got no time to even rest syg. Really. Im not joking. Pardon me for not updating. & I miss everyone!

& oh, I'll upload the pictures soon at FB. Goodbye!

October.

2009-10-15T19:36:00.003+08:00

Pardon me for the not updating. Im so busy with house chores, job haunting and of cas Ryan. Yes, Alhamdulliah I got myself a job. Nah ah, I wont tell you where but Im sure people in Jurong will surely caught me red handed working. hahaha.I'll start on monday itself. So fucking excited tau. Yes! Yes! =]

Two days sleeping over at aunt's place Ive learn loads of thing with aunt. I know its not easy being a wife and a daughter-in-law. Im glad Im able to manage. Thanks to aunt for giving me loads of advice.

Ryan will turn 2mths this thursday. Yay! Da besar die. hehehe. Believe it or not, yst die berak 3 times sey. Adoi. Kesian my babyboy. Tu lah minum susu byk2. kan! kan! lol. As I watch him grow, I finally realise how big is my role as a mother. And and I love ghufran even more. Though at times I find him silly. heees!

Step 1 2 3 & 4 things for married couple.
4 kisses each day, make love 3x per week, go on a date 2 time a month and say I love you 1 time each day.

raya! raya! raya!

2009-10-05T15:01:00.003+08:00

Go Jalan Raya with Gup and his friends.
Ryan kene tinggal with my mother in law. hehehe.

Kerete kecik la syg. huhu!

Can you guys imagine the 6 of us da like sardine inside the Suzuki swift car.

But but but I had fun though. =]

Now Im staying at gup's place.
Still not comfortable with the enviroment yet.
Guess I need some time to get use to it.

But my home is still the Best!

Damn. I miss my Nenek! geram!

Ups & downs.

2009-09-30T12:46:00.002+08:00

Ignore the pink hanky. hahahah. Its a Boy not girl eh.

I took this picture while he almost asleep yst. Funny kan?

Jahat sey mummy die. huhu!

I was so suprise to see the sudden change yst. He text me saying sorry & he told me that he never mean to make me cry. I was so glad & touch. Hopefully, this time is for real. I had a good talk yst with him otp after so long. I want more of it, please.

&& I miss you.

Unfair.

2009-09-29T15:40:00.003+08:00

Good to hear that alot of people is reading the entry.
May yall couple start thinking about the future alright?

As for myself, I dont know whats going on. Its hard to explain what I felt last night. Really so disappointed. Like Ive said. I shall forget about it. Since I gotta sacrifice that big day. May that party be a success one. Atleast making someone happy might make me feel better. How I really wish I could turn back time but too bad, I cant. If its possible, I will never make the same big fucking mistake again.

I hardly have time for myself. All I could do is either rot at home, look after Ryan, watch tv, eat, sleep & do all the house chores. Wth. Its sickening. If I could switch rolls with gup. That will be super great. Atleast I could meet my friends whenever I get the chance to go for nights out. I could release my stress & have a break. See girls. Its not easy being a young mother. Boys will only be super duper ultra nice at the first sigh. Just give them 6mths. They will surely change after that. Trust me! Fuck!

RhyFresh,Ryan,Future.

2009-09-28T14:44:00.005+08:00

This picture was taken straight away after he had his bath. Just look at his forehead. hahaha. Itu keje gup. Sorry siket. lol. Funny kan? Ape lah daddy. Anyway, I bought my furniture two days back. I'll be moving over to gup's place. Goodbye NTI people! :D

After had a talk with my uncle yst. I have a clearer view about how to handle the future. Thank u for the advise! Now, I got to set my goals straight. Should I just forget about my dream as a dancer & my career that Ive been longing for? Hais. I wonder hows RhyFresh is doing without me now? Make me proud okay?

That entry.

2009-09-26T13:20:00.002+08:00

I knew it. Not many will read my september 24 entry. Only the wise people will bother to read that longest entry that I ever post. Did you girls feel like crying while reading did? hehehe. I almost cried. Anyway, I meet up with Fareena afew days back. Damn. I miss her alot. && not forgetting bout Farlyanna & her fiance. Baby Mirah is so adorable, I must say.

Maybe I shall forget about that big day. sigh. Its killing me slowly.

Thinking.

2009-09-24T13:28:00.003+08:00

Theres so mant things that I gotta learn.

After reading this email from my aunt.

I finally realise what I really need for my relationship to last.

Actually we human beings should atleast spare a little time for our love once.

Shower them with love. Show some appreciation towards each other might actually make one feel good. Now read this & if you feel me. Im sure you'll start thinking.

Unless youre heartless. Agree?

To All Married Couples and To All Future Couples!!!!

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a months time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going cr az y. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain.

From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest.. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a su ita ble one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The sales girl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote: 'I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage. Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.

We teach some by what we say
We teach some more by what we do
But we teach most by what we are You don't get to choose how you are going to die, or when, but, you can decide how you are going to live, here and now.

so how?

Selamat Hari Raya!

2009-09-22T17:59:00.009+08:00

First of all, I would like to wish all muslim Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir & Batin. Thanks to hubby for making this year Raya a meaningful one for me. I had a great day yst with his family. We took loads of pictures. I'll upload them all at fb.

Next, I might be meeting Farlyanna with a little cousin tmr. Im so excited. Heees. & oh not forgetting about my big day with babylove. 15 more days to our anniversary. I love you sweetheart! && Ryan will turn a month old tmr. Yay! :D

Perfect.

2009-09-18T15:27:00.002+08:00

Picture taken last week at Geylang. For the first time Ryan go jalan-jalan tau. hehehe. Hmm, I never tot that geylang was that havoc. So ramai nye. Rimas! Rimas! But Idk why Ryan can still happily sleeping inside his prem. hahaha. & oh, even the Kfc was full house. My goodness!

3 days more to my 3rd wedding monthsary with babylove. Alhamdullilah we manage to go thru this far. Marriage life is so not easy to handle. Now I finally realise why some people divorce.

Answered Prayers

2009-09-14T15:54:00.003+08:00

Thank you for making my day these few days.

I really appreciate it alot.

I can see how much you have change.

Im so glad that we manage to pull thru.

I love you sweetheart!

Im so excited. I cant wait to Jalan Raya with Ryan. hehe.

Hopefully, my Baju Kurung fits me nicely.

&& I would like to congrats my dearly cousin for giving birth to her princess Qistina.

Too much.

2009-09-06T22:28:00.003+08:00

I really need a break. Why is the time running so damn slow. Idk what the hell Im thinking right now. I simply cant think straight. I just cant help it with everything ya know. There is so many things to think about, so many things to do && aaaaaaaah! I cant manage everything. Idk if I can pull thru with every test given by god. Just so you know, I really want this marriage to last so please think wisely before you react aite?

My little Prince is doing fine but sigh. He turns me into an owl. If you get what I mean. Grrr!

Home sweet Home.

2009-08-30T18:54:00.003+08:00

My dearest son will be back home tmr. Im so excited! Finally, I get to hold him with my very own hands. After 1 week, tmr is the day. Heeeeeees! Ryan, Mummy wait for you okay syg? =]

This year I dont have to fast. Nyehehe. butbutbut, I cant eat lots of food due to what they called in malay "pantang?" Gaaaaah! Im dying to have dengdeng. Im dying to have sugar cane. Geram! Nvm, its okay. Sabar zeee! Sabaaaaar!

As for this year Raya, I guess I can forget about Green packets eh?

Indra Ryan.

2009-08-27T20:51:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone, Im back like finally. Home sweet home! But sad to say Baby Ryan got to stay in the hospital for another three days. He'll be back home on Monday due to what they call "Sakit Kuning". Sedih kan? So for those who wants to visit me. Feel free to visit me on Monday onwards okay? Just text me if you need my address aite?

Just look at him. He is actually 3.3kg. Sihat anak aku! lol. He was born on the 23 August at 9.29pm. I didnt manage to go thru normal delivery due to his heart rate. I went thru a hard time. Only god knows how painful it is cesarean. But Alhamdulliah, everything goes smoothly.

&& Im happy! =]

Mascara.

2009-08-15T19:29:00.003+08:00

Yst, I had a good lunch with grandma & babylove. I was suprise to see him at Delifrance. Oh my, I miss him so much. He book in yst night. After we had dinner at Spize with Faiza, Hakim & Yan. We Sent him back to camp. Sooooooob!

Since yst till now, I can feel the contraction on & off. Its like asthough I'll labour soon. Please bring hard for me so that I'll give birth to him asap kay?kay? Heeees~ oh ya, I bought Maybelline Mascara ultra volume. Its goood for anybody who likes thick eye lashes. =]

okay lah people, Im done here. Goodbye!

Random.

2009-08-11T17:37:00.000+08:00

This is our very first picture together. Outside Cine waiting for our very first movie at Chamber. Actually planned to watch an M18 movie but I was 17 back then & there goes the ticket into the bin. hahahaha. Anyway, I really miss him so much. He wont be booking out till Sunday morning. Sigh. And believe it anot I still didnt get the chance to hear his voice. B bile ni dpt dgr suare you?!

Did you guys watch Anugerah yst? Congrats to Sarah Aqilah but still aku suke Chirul! How I wish I could vote but but but sadly Im using prepaid. Kad prabayar? lol. And oh, sorry for not uploading the pictures. Faiza is busy so yeah. Wait ay people?

As about Bbyboy. Please do wait & pray hard for me okay? hehehe. Im excited, nervous, scared & worried. Ive mixed everything now & I confuse myself. gaaaaah! && the good news is the contraction is getting stronger. Da nak kua la tu. Wait kay? hehehehe.

Babies.

2009-08-11T16:50:00.003+08:00

Cute kan?kan? Hahaha. This picture is so hilarious. lol. Just look at the expression. Geram aku! hahaha. If my babyboy da born. I want to feed him till he is as chubby as his daddy. hahahahahah. Oh my, I so cant wait for him. gaaaaaaaaah!

I must say u gonna read loads of birthday wishes from me this month. Anyway, A very Happy 8th Birthday to my dearest cousin, Ahmad Shafiq. Da besar die eh? Even if at times he can be very irritating to me but still he is the best person to make me smile. I love you little cousin. =]

Will celeb it at home this time instead of going out for dinner. It will be different. Grandma will not be cooking but we will order since she is so sick. Kesian nenek aku tau. heees. Dont ask me to cook. NO. My cooking is terrible. You can ask gup. hahahahaha. Im so lucky to have him. Nasib tak cerewet. But still I got to start learning. huhu.

2009-08-10T22:42:00.002+08:00

I spent my whole week from Wednesday night till Sunday night with my dearest babylove. Really had a great weekend as well. Went out shopping with Faiza & Hakim. Not forgetting about the fish spa along with Yan & Khairani. The fishes is adorable but still I will never will put my legs inside that pool. Aku geli! hahahahahaha. I'll upload the pictures once I got from Faiza kay?

Dont ask me when Im gonna deliver cas I, myself is not really sure about it. Im as excited as all of you so bare with me a little longer aite? Die belom ready nak see the whole la. Wait kay people! huhu. Well, guess thats about it. Till the next entry. xoxo

Baby Vans shoe.

2009-08-04T18:17:00.004+08:00

Hello readers! Guess what Ive been doing for the whole day? Goodness! Sitting infornt of the computer. I really got nothing to do. Luckly, Lynda text me or I'll be super bored. Ahhhh, look at the shoe. Lawa kan?kan? Hehe. Gup sanggup check online just to get this for his babyboy. How sweet ay?

Will be having dinner later at night together with cousin to celebrate my Uncle's Birthday. Huhu. Damn. Im so hungry. Anyway, I did try onsugar just now. Its so confusing. Fareena help me! Mcm mane nak change layout ni?

Okay lah. Im so tired already. Damn. Where is my dear atok? Cepat lah. Da lapar nieeeeeeee!

&& oh, Happy Birthday Dear Uncle!

August Baby.

2009-08-02T21:56:00.007+08:00

Here is the pictures taken during hubby's suprise birthday party.

Babylove book in early today due to briefing. Im so gonna miss him alot. After 4 days having him by my side like 24hours now finally his back in camp. Anyway, will be going for check up this Wednesday with mother. Hopefully everything will be alright. Since everyone wants to see babyboy on the 9 August then pray hard for me okay? hehehe.

Yst, saw Lynda with Baby Aaliyah & her mother-in-law. Oh gosh, her babygirl is so adorable. You wait kay syg. Your little friend will be deliver soon. huhu. Damn. Im soooo excited. =]

& yes, Happy 19th Birthday Ramona.

May god always be with you to guide you to a better path.
Takecare!

Babylove 21st bday.

2009-07-28T18:53:00.001+08:00

A very Happy 21st Birthday my dear! Pardon me for being such an ass to u at times. I'll try to be the very very best for you in time to come. Even if u made me cry so hard for you during those days still my love for you has never change. Just so you know, youre the most precious one in my heart. Please remember that. I hope you like the gift, the ice-cream cake & the susprise for you yst. I love you hubby!

I must say Ive been keeping alot of things to myself lately until yst. Thanks to Dee. Afterall, you are still the best person for me to let out my feeling. Appreciate it alot & I really miss those good times with you. Meet me sooooooon okay syg?

I never tot that I got to sacrifice this much. Even not knowing issit worth doing it. What I should do? Should I just let it be? Or should I speak out? What if things turns out to be worst than that? Can I just say Im sick of everything & run away from all this problems? oh fuck.

New layout.

2009-07-28T17:28:00.004+08:00

As you can see I just change my layout again & again & again, I know. I swear I love this layout so muchy. Hahahaha. whatever zeeeee. Anyway, somebody's birthday is like in three days time. huhu. Sape eh? Sape eh? hahahahahahha.

Hopefully, Babylove gets to book out tmr or I shall sleep alone till Thursday. Gaaaaah!

Thank you everyone for the support, advise & all. Appreciate it alot. I never tot that yall still have a tot about me. Lets put all the old times aside & we shall start anew kay?kay? & Dee please get well soon okay? I missssss you so much! ♥♥♥

2009-07-26T14:25:00.003+08:00

Suddenly I felt so odd after knowing everyone is talking about it.

Whatever it is I dont wish to hide no more cause I believe theres no point crying over it.

2009-07-22T19:42:00.002+08:00

Glad that hubby is all better, alhamdulliah. As for me, I almost slept for the whole day. I felt so weak and restless. Ahhhh Idk why. Bbyboy, Is not as active as before. Im so worried.

Anw, chat with Fareena just now. Damn, I miss her alot as well as Qyshka. Yesyesyes! I promise I will meet u girls soon okay? & oh, Lynda I'll visit u soon. Maybe one of this weekend along with gup. kay? kay?

I was suprise to know that Ive a daily reader. Thank you for visiting my blog. I tot my blog is so so dead. Appreciate it lots laaaaaaaaaaaaa! =]

Stop it!

2009-07-21T17:09:00.004+08:00

First of all, please pray hard for gup cas his super sick. I was so stunned to receive a msg this morning. He is still in camp. In the sickbay. Hopefully he'll be alright. Im still waiting for him to text me. B da okay belom u?! I love you okay b!

Next, Im missing loads of stuff. Seriously, I got alot to catch up. May I'll be on track pretty soon. Reason being MIA is due to [insertreason]. I believe some may know so yeah. I need some refreshment. This whole thing that is bothering me is driving me crazy. Issit my fault? oh please.

Lastly, to whoever it may concern.
Pardon me for being such an ass at times.

2009-07-14T21:48:00.004+08:00

Nothing much happen currently. I was susprise to see hubby's myspace display picture. huhuhu. I cant wait to see him wearing it dear. Mesti cute eh? Maybe I'll be heading to school tmr to pay my school fee. gaaaaaaaaaaah! Two months nye eh. $540. I can actually get myself a guess handbag. Or maybe two Bonia handbag. Dammit!

Sigh. Some people only come by for help and then leave when they dont need. Some even befriend with you for fame and then drift apart from you when you turn to be nobody. Worst, 5years of friendship gone to waste for just a simple mistake. Even if that very person mistake is bigger. Goodness.

Maybe they shall return pretty soon after everything turn back as pernormal ay?

Saturday.

2009-07-12T16:54:00.002+08:00

Hows my new layout? Nice? Better? Any comments? hehehe. Anyway, yst was great. Saturday was well spent. Oh my, I love it. Not forgetting Friday as well. We walk around Jp. Planned to buy the shirt for Babyboy but in the end Hubby bought a pants at fox for himself and a shirt for me at Esprit. && we bought some household. Susu besar gile. hahahahahaha. Imgine 4litre. Besar tuuuuu.

Enough with the milk thingy. As for Saturday we shop and meet up with Faiza & Hakim. Had our late lunch together at pizzahut. Then we walk around suntec and home sweet home. Hubby, Thanks for the watch, guess wallet and all the treats. So nice of you. Love you la!

Now his in camp. His Sgt called him this morning and he was asked to book in. Damn it. Sabar zeeeee. Your day will come. heh. =]

Well thats about it. Goodbye!

2009-07-09T00:15:00.004+08:00

Pictures taken during the 4 days Im hospitalized. hahahahaha. Just look at gup. lol. Sempat kite camwhore. Seriously, we got nothing to do at that point of time. If youre clever enough u can tell in what ward Im in. hehehehe.

Anyway, Hubby booked out last night. Was so glad to see him. But sigh tonight Im sleeping alone cause he gotta book in back. But but but, not to worry cause tmr he'll book out in the evening. Yay! Slowly, Im getting use to everything. Im lovin it. At first I tot everything will be worst than my nightmares but in the end everything went smoothly. Alhamdullilah.

I cant wait for this Saturday. Shopping! Shopping! hehehehhehe.
okay lah. Im hungry.
Goodbye!

Hospitalized

2009-06-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

Hello readers! Pardon me me for the lack of updates. Anyway, I just got discharge from hospital last Thursday. Now I felt a little better. Hubby has been super duper ultra nice. So so so sweet of him. He really took care of me since day 1 I was hospitalized. 4 days in the hospital was a nightmare for me. Gaaaaah!

Idk whats wrong with my msn. I cant simply sign in as pernormal and thats the reason u hardly see me online. & yeah, I just get to know that a friend of mine is actually my cousin. Lol. What a small world. Jurong tak leh lari eh? hahahahaha.

A big thank u to Faiza & Hakim for visiting me. So nice of u two. Not forgetting Mama, Kak Fira & Myrah. Saaaayang u all la. hehehehe. =]

Thank you dear for being there for me when I need you the most. Im so glad that Ive chosen you to be my life partner. And here I promise you that I'll never pull out the ring out of my finger. I love you so much sweetheart. Happy 9th monthsary Babylove!

4 days left

2009-06-16T22:14:00.003+08:00

I woke up late today due to sleeping super ultra late yesterday. I cant seem to sleep like a baby. Dont ask me why. Anyway, had my breakfast plus lunch after shower and I help out in the kitchen a little. Then I slack the whole day. Adooooi, aku penat oi.

4 more days left and Im nervous, worried and semua-semua lah. I miss everyone. I swear I do. 2 more months left and I'll meet u all up ay? And oh yes, Im still using the same number. Pardon me if I didnt reply to your msges cas belom topup la. hehe. Text me to ask important stuff only, okay.

Goodbye!

Baby G Shock.

2009-06-13T23:36:00.004+08:00

I need a new watch for myself. Jam aku da rabsss!
So what do you think? Should I get the White one or the Black one?
I like it both. Not sure about gup yet. I guess he will surely pick the black one.
Hmmmmm. I cant decide.

In a week time, Im gonna be somebody for somebody and Im nervous. My heart beats 2 times faster whenever I think about it. I cant seem to stop thinking and now Im super duper ultra stress. I have loads of responsibility and I hope people around me can consider my situation. I shall cut down on lepaking and focus. Agree?

But I must say I did laugh alot just now. Thank you sweetheart. I really had a great day with you today. Hopefully theres more to come. Love you so much bacen!

I miss you.

2009-06-10T17:34:00.004+08:00

This is how he look with Uniform. That is his parents. He look so like his mom ay? hehehe. Anyway, nothing much happen lately. Boredem strikes me every now and then. Thanks to my little chatty box cousin who always makes my day though he irritates me most of the time. Asking for PSP. -.-" Im glad adik gets along very well with Gup. Boleh pulak u layankan die eh.

Hahahahaha.

Dee will be coming over later in the evening. Ohmy, I miss her alot. And not forgetting Fikar. Saw her just now at NTI. Dont know whats she is doing there. Baik, from Bedok all the way here eh. hehehehe. Miss her alot. Hope to see her again soon. =]

Okay, Im done here. Aku lapar. Goodbye!

& oh, Happy Birthday Ojen!

Done.

2009-06-08T17:05:00.003+08:00

I guess most of you got to know the truth already.

What more can I do right?

Its drawing nearer and Idk how I should react to the situation.

Hopefully things will be just fine.

Happy 8th Monthsary Babylove!

I love you okay Bacen!

2009-05-31T13:52:00.002+08:00

Been busy with a couple of things lately. Everything is going on smoothly. Alhamdullilah. Yesterday was well spent with Babylove. Thank you for everything honey. Will be meeting him later at 3pm and yes, with Faiza & Hakim as well cas we will be having lunch together. Okay, Im hungry. heh.

Not forgetting the May Babies.

A VERY HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MYRAH & A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITT. May you both have a super ultra blissful life in time to come.

♥♥♥

Feel me.

2009-05-27T00:29:00.004+08:00

If only I could turn back time, I would. Turn back to 26 September. Remember how we spent that very beautiful night together along with full of happiness and laughter? Remember when we first press our lips together? How I really wish I could. I miss those days with you, alone. But now, everything seems to be different. If only I knew it would be this way I rather not walk this path and stay on the safe side. I never wish to regret, pardon me for that. But the truth is I cant stop myself from loving you though knowing your flaws and after what you did to me. I keep telling myself that one day you'll change for good. One day you'll see all those sacrifices that Ive made for you.

Just so you know, I'll try my best to be the best for you.

2009-05-25T23:30:00.003+08:00

Dee came over my place just now. Had our lunch together as well. Yadayada & she went off as I gotta meet baby to settle some stuff. Damn, I miss her alot. Thank god she had an off day just now. Meet soooooon ay?

I had alot of fun just now with babylove. Thank you for everything sweet. I really like it this way. I had a great time with you and I appreciate every single second I spent with you. I hope theres more to come.

I ♥ you!

2009-05-24T14:56:00.003+08:00

I know my jealousy is super raaaabak but I just cant see things that belongs to me at the hand of others. Pardon me for this selfish behavior. Ive been trying so hard to change this attitude of mine for good but I just cant. Not only that, I also have a very bad temper these days. Idk why. Maybe due to the situation Im facing currently. Whats wrong with you zeeeeee??

I dont wanna hurt anybody around me but how do I make a person understand my feelings? Why cant people consider my feelings first before reacting or saying something?

Okay whatever. Im done.

Baby, I miss you loads.

2009-05-20T23:45:00.003+08:00

Had lunch with Azean just now. Ohmy, I miss you alot and it goes the same to Dee and Eleena as well. Sometimes I tot people dont care or even concern about me but actually there are. Its just me who dont realise it. I was so glad. Didnt expect that much from them though but seriously, am so happy.

Know what? I guess stranger understands me better than the one close to my heart. If only I could share everything that is bothering me every now and then, I would but wth I cant. And if I could nobody can even help me. fuck.

If only I dont judge the book by its cover. Ive already won this game.

2009-05-17T23:45:00.003+08:00

People wont understand whats deep down in your heart unless you let it out. Sometimes I wish I can be more understanding but sigh. My sensitiveness is just making things worst. I never tot that he could love me that much. Anyway, to love somebody is to accept its flaws as well right? And yes, I hope people around me could understand my situation. Im too caught up with things so dont ask too much okay? Im sorry, I need time alone.

2009-05-15T17:56:00.005+08:00

Pictures taken few months back.
I'll upload the other outing pictures pretty soon.

Received an unexpected email.
Was so glad to see it.
Just so you know, I'm missing you alot.
Meet soon okay?

2009-05-14T18:02:00.002+08:00

Life is very short,

Its up to you to appreciate it or not,

You cant reset the time that you have waste it

and feelings is not like you can cut and paste it

though its too late to regret on what I did

afterall everything is my own mistake

I dont blame you for what you did

Maybe its just a little punishment from god,

I believe.

2009-05-07T10:14:00.003+08:00

Its so sickening. May time flies as fast as possible.
Whatever is happening right now, I really hope it will end pretty soon.
Just so you know, karma always happen.

I ~~hate~~ you.

2009-05-04T22:18:00.003+08:00

I spent the whole day infornt of the computer playing Restaurant City. Anybody esle playing?Lately Ive been online on Facebook often and dont ask me about Friendster and Myspace. As you can see Ive just change my layout again. Yes, I know Ive been changing it often. Im super frickle minded. Thats the reason why.

Not forgetting about things that has been happening to me lately. Well, I appreciate every reader, thank you. But it will be even better if you consider people's feelings first before tagging. I guess you get what Im trying to say ay? Remember this, "what goes around comes around."

♥

2009-04-29T23:51:00.003+08:00

I cant sleep. Too many things is bothering me. Stress nye aku! gaaaaah. Okay whatever. Currently am craving for chocolates and Fish & chips eventhough I had them already just now. lols. Anyway, meet up with my long lost friend Kitt just now. Sad to say Zanna cant join us just now. Next time ay babygirl?

2009-04-27T23:32:00.003+08:00

Many little things happen each and everyday.

Lately everything is going so good for me.

Alhamdullilah.

I meet up with Dee and Norzin just now.

Its been awhile since we last met.

Damn, miss them alot.

Everyone is so busy nowadays unlike back in those days.

As the date draw nearer, Im super excited.

Gosh, only god knows how it feels.

Im happy you know!

hahahahahahahhahahahhahahahahaha.

2009-04-23T16:38:00.003+08:00

Oh my, I miss you girls so much. I really do.

I promise you girls I'll come by soon to meet you all aite?

Thanks Mom for all the advice and support.

Even if one day I cant afford to run I'll try my best to reach for my goals.

Like what you said, never give up. And yes I will never give up.

2009-04-22T15:38:00.005+08:00

Idk what more I'll see in time to come. Will it be something good or bad? I've been trying very hard to hold on to everything but I guess I'm not that strong enough. I want it to be perfect though knowing nothing in this world is perfect. why? I love everyone around me, both my family and friends. How about them? I'm confuse. Am I too sensitive? I find it hard to control

my emotions these days. WHY?

I miss your touch. Every now and then I'll be thinking about you.

I know every ups and downs in our relationship is just a test from him.

But will it be worst then this in future dear?

2009-04-16T21:37:00.003+08:00

I will sure meet all of you at bradford pretty soon.

Pardon me for being MIA. lols.

Things have been going smoothly. Not to worry.

Ive been eating alot lately. hahahahas.

Bf has been giving me so much attention.

I love you so much baby.

I just cant wait for the day to come.

2009-04-13T08:35:00.004+08:00

Baby, I wanna spend my life with you forever.
Just so you know my heart is always with you and forever will.
Even if you turn my sweetdreams to horrible nightmare at times,
Still you bother to make it up to me.
Im so glad that everything is back as pernormal.
Thank you for making it happen dear. ♥

I spent time with Bf and my family on Saturday. I'm so glad he can get along with my family. We had our dinner together at Sakura. Bf was so shy. hahahahahas. Its okay sweetheart, you'll get use to it soon aite? So hows going out with your future in-laws? hahahahahahs.

As for Sunday, I spent time with Bf alone. Upload some songs and pictures in his psp. Had our lunch at KFC and home sweet home. Damn! I just hate it when it comes to sunday. B tak book in boleh? hehehehe. Suke suke hati aku je tau. lol.

Yesyes, I know. Finally I post a long long entry after so looongggg right? hahahas. okay whatever. Im done, goodbye!

2009-04-10T18:02:00.002+08:00

I spent my whole day at home, rotting. Its almost evening and yet Im stuck at home. Tot of going out just now but I call it off since Bf promise to go on a date with me so here I am waiting.

My situation actually made me stronger, stronger than I was before. Ive finally realise how capable I am even Im alone. I use to think that I can never do anything alone but not now. Hopefully, I'll be better in time.

2009-04-09T18:14:00.004+08:00

Pardon me for the lack of updates.

First of all, my internet connection sucks.

Second, Ive been busy with some important things.

Lastly, Im sick for a week. Damn!

I miss my girlfriends, I miss shopping, I miss nightlife, I miss dancing,

Guess I miss everythinnnnnnnnnng! But sigh, maybe not now.

At times I feel like giving up but you came back and return my smile.

I shouldnt have let you in but I already trip and fall.

Why must things have to be so hard?

2009-03-28T12:33:00.002+08:00

Thank god everything goes smoothly.

Im so glad that things turns out so well.

In fact, better than what I expected.

I really cant wait for that big day.

Oh my, I love you so much sweetheart!

2009-03-24T19:51:00.003+08:00

Everything is so different now. I have new goals to reach out.

Im glad that I still have boyfriend with me through good and hard times.

Oh yes, I'll be away for a little while and Im gonna miss everyone.

2009-03-06T23:10:00.003+08:00

I wonder why good things dont last forever.

It goes the same to friendships.

Maybe I miss all those good times with a long lost friend of mine.

Why people always love to judge the book by its cover?

And why people only remember all the wrong doing instead of the good deeds?

2009-03-05T20:00:00.005+08:00

Meet with Bf's little sister, Myrah just now in the afternoon. Help here out with her blog and we had our lunch at Delifrance together as well. I'm so thankful. Bf's family is super nice. I felt so welcome. Im so glad that Ive found you dear, really glad. =]

Bf wont be booking out this Friday but instead on the Saturday morning. Oh my, I cant wait for this Saturday. 5th mthsary babey! hehehehe. Plus, I heard theres a event going on this Saturday. Dancework at Plaza Singapura ay? Anybody heading there?

Hope to see everyone at town this week. Miss everybody!

2009-03-03T21:06:00.002+08:00

I felt all better letting out my thoughts with my lovely classmate Nurul.

As for today, I stayed in school for self-study with her.

Thanks for teaching me chemistry babe.

Oh yes, last weekend I watch this Horrible movie with bf.

My Bloody Valentine.

I like the story line but about the violent is really RABAK!

Anyway, I cant wait for Street Fighter. Hahahas.

Anybody wanna watch with me? =]

hehe.

Guess, Im done here.

Goodbye!

2009-03-02T22:59:00.003+08:00

Im very busy with life.
Pardon me for the lack of updates.
Seriously, I need someone to tutor me for my Maths.
I didnt attend class today cas blablablablabla.
BUT! I wont miss my chemistry class tmr. heh!

Okay people, I'll update more next time!
Goodbye!

2009-02-23T13:08:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I would like to wish Ezza and Dinnish

A very Happy Belated 21th & 18th Birthday respectively.
The outing with my classmate was superb. =]

But, but, but the best part is when I received a msg on Saturday morning.
I didnt actually jump for joy but I was super ultra happy.
Boyfriend text me saying,

"B I da otw alek umah tau nant pape
I dah sampai umah I msg u okay baby.."

Boyfriend book out! hehehehehe.
I spent the whole day with him both Saturday & Sunday.
&& I cant wait for this coming weekend! =]

Believe or not people,
I spent my saturday with Bf, Fatah & Karim
playing Lan game at Cine after shisha.
gaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Left 4 dead.
hahahaha.
Anyway, I had fun though.
Okay Im done here.
Goodbye!

2009-02-19T11:58:00.003+08:00

This is how ugly I look like in school.

I just cant be bother with the way I look.

Anyway, I really need a break.

I'm not focusing in class, I know.
I dont wish to disappoint you people with my result.

But I'll start working hard very soon.

To all, my sim card is with boyfriend.

Text me only if its urgent.

I'll get back to you asap.

Goodbye!

2009-02-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

Idk why lately Ive been listening to this old song.

Idk but I easily gets so emotional whenever I hear this song.

Anyway, Im starting to fall in love with Chemistry.

Thanks to my Teacher. lol. hehehehe.

Nowadays, too many things is bothering me.

I just cant help it. I cant stop thinking about it.

Though knowing that it wont happen.

why? why? why?

2009-02-09T20:26:00.004+08:00

My 4th Monthsary was a blast. Thanks to boyfriend.

I dont know what Im gonna do without you.

And once again thanks for the movie ticket and the treat to amira's grill.

Honey, I love you so much!

2009-02-04T20:24:00.002+08:00

WHAT

THE

FUCK!

2009-02-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

I was disappointed but I gotta accept the fact. I shall take things slowly for now. Its been almost a week and still Ive yet to get over it. Why is it so hard? How I wish Im stronger than this and how I wish I could tell everyone how much it hurts me. Sigh, I cant. And yes! How I fucking wish I can smack a face now so that I can let out my anger that Ive been keeping for days? Wth!

I was so glad Zin was there for me yesterday if not I will be rotting at home alone. For instant, what Im doing now. gaaaaaaaaaah! And whenever Im alone I will start thinking about it again. Oh fuck. Must I consider people's past for my future? Must I put up a smile eventhough Im crying inside?

2009-01-21T18:18:00.002+08:00

Okay, I got nothing to do and SO, I took some pictures with my webcam.
Boredom strikes me easily nowadays. Gah!
Guess what, I cut down on smoking already.
Believe it or not, I smoke 3 sticks per day. Amazing har? lol. -.-"

Lets skip that part. Well, Maths test paper was tough.
Hopefully, I get into the same class with Ateen. hehehehehe.

I miss you so much la bacen!
Please please please call me soon okay? :D

2009-01-20T19:18:00.002+08:00

I miss boyfriend so badly. Every now and then I kept thinking about him. Thank god he book out last night. Im so happy to meet him today. =]

And oh, I cant believe that I actually pay attention during chemistry class. hahahaaha. Zee, zee. Silly billy. Seriously, chemistry is not that bad after all aye? lol.

-Sometimes, we have to consider peoples feelings first before ours. But at times I also wish people can read those little pain that I undergo now. Oh allah, tell me what am suppose to do?

2009-01-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

If you dont talk you wont know a thing.

Letting it hanging wont slove anything.

2009-01-18T19:31:00.002+08:00

Shits happened.

But thanks to boyfriend for being there for me.

I got into a school at Bradford Rex Private School.

I'm taking private O this year.

Im done.

2009-01-10T10:35:00.004+08:00

Okay, my birthday was superb. Thanks to Boyfriend, Dee and Qyshka for making that susprise party for me. Omg! I love it. The cookies and all. So sweet of you guys. Thank you so much! And yes not forgetting the birthday wishes! Thank you so much! Some msges I may not reply due to my prepaid. Belom topup la. hahahaha.

Oh yes, will be heading to Zouk tonight with bf and friends. Ohmy! Im so excited. Yelah, kan baru nak legal. hehehe. Anyway, will be heading to my cousin's wedding lunch later on. I cant wait to escort my cousin later. hehe.

Well thats about it. Will upload the pictures soon once I get it from DEE aite? Goodbye! =]

2009-01-05T20:42:00.003+08:00

Okay first of all I cant believe I have the balls to pierce my tougue. Idk why among all places tougue is the most scary part for me. Okay whatever. But thanks to Ina for piercing for me and not forgetting the Pastamania treat. Thanks babe. =]

Idk why Im feeling this way. wth. I feel asthough my heart is dropping out. Sigh. People change you know. Fuck! Not every smile tells you that someone is happy. Not every laughter tells you that your joke is funny. You feel me?

2009-01-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken during countdown.

Was so glad Mommy, Daddy, Boyfriend and Qyshka came to support me.

Not forgetting Freakzy. Thanks you so much! =]

I will upload the video once Im able to transfer the video to my lappy.

Aite?

Twilight was superb. Its a very nice movie. You guys should watch it. Trust me you wont regret. Oh yes! We catch a movie after count down at Vivo. Planned to head to Sentosa but in the end we meet up with Aida, Hafreez and Dilly instead. Had our dinner there as well.

Thanks for the movie dear. Countdown with you was great. I hope we able to countdown again in future. Oh my, I love you so much! Happy New Year baby! And please please please book out this coming Wednesday okay? =]

Day by Day I believe I need nobody in my life now other than boyfriend and my family. I spent most of my time at home and Boyfriend nowadays. Im so happy that my parents approve my relationship. Alhamdullilah. =]

Enough said. Im done here. Goodbye!

2008-12-30T23:15:00.000+08:00

Aloooohaaaa human beings! 2008 will be over in a few hours time and Im super duper ultra fucking excited! Oh yes! A brand new year with a brand new journey. Still I havent get into any school. Dammit! But whatever it is, do catch Rhyfresh life at Woodlands tmr aite people! Its at 8pm so please dont be late.

I can forget about Siloso Beach Party. [insertreason] And oh! Not forgetting about Boyfriend. He'll be booking out tmr. Oh yeaaaaah baby! hehehehe. I miss you la Bacen! I want my bear hug can?! =]

Im so worried about count down's performance. Im super sick and Im afraid that I might screw up. gaaaah! Im down with fever and flu. Damn! Why now? Please recover ~~soon~~ NOW ZEEEEEEEE!

2008-12-26T12:39:00.000+08:00

I miss you two okay babygirl. Pardon me for not joining you girls last Saturday. I busy la. hehehehe. I meet you girls pretty soon okay. 5 more days to count down and Im freaking excited. Yes! 2009~ hehehehehehe.

Okay Don't be confuse. The poster says Ghetto Flava will be performing right? Oh no. Its RHYFRESH instead okay. And yeaaah!

Venue : Woodlands Padang

Time : 8 or 9 pm.

Well, come and support us aite? I guess thats about it. Oh ya. will be meeting Rhyfresh later on. Okay Im excited! See you people! =]

2008-12-23T14:29:00.000+08:00

Picture taken Idk when I cant recall the date but yeaah. We celeb Ateen's Belated Birthday at Jurong point Pizzahut since Im so shagged after dance prac. Taufiq feeling-feeling hunk je kat center. hahahahah.

Anyway, Thanks to granny for making me woke up so early and she call off everything. Gah! Now, Im super duper bored. Please ask me out people. Ohhh, ohhh not forgetting today is my aunt's Birthday. Will be having family dinner later on in ther evening. Okay now Im hungry. Anybody wanna accompany me grab my lunch at Jp? =]

&& I miss boyfriend! Please,please, please book out tmr aite. Love you la b!

2008-12-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

Picture taken from adel blog. hehehe. I curi from your blog. lol.
Anyway, Congrats to G.O.D, WFM and Liptalk.
Protege was superb. I had a great time there last Saturday.
But overall G.O.D is the best!

Yesterday, I spent the whole day with boyfriend. I miss him so much already. Hopefully He gets to book out this Wednesday. But sigh, I have dance prac for count down. Grrrr! And yeahh, people am performing for count down. Its at woodlands padang. Will be performing at about 8 or 9pm like that aite. Come and support Ryhfresh people! =]

As for today, Im super duper free people. As me out aite. hehehehe. Till then. Goodbye!

2008-12-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken during Zouk Out.

As for yesterday, I woke up early. Random. hahahaha. Okay, meet up with Zimah and Sasha for breakfast at Subway and meet the rest at hall for dance practice. I had a great time with them. Boyfriend came at about 3 plus to accompany me. So sweet of him. =]

After dance prac I head home to wash up. Boyfriend and I head to town to meet up his friends. As usual we slack at KK. I must say boyfriend really miss his deck. lol. I talk to his friends while he skate. Watch Zaffy do her cheer routine with Malek, Pan and Hakim. They were superb.

Everything was prefectly fine whenever his around. Ohh I love you baby. And today will be heading to Art house with him for Protege event. Okay Im excited. Dont ask me why. Im looking forward to meet up with everyone there. Gah! See you guys later! =]

2008-12-18T13:09:00.000+08:00

I spent the whole day doing my new layout plus updating my stuff since I got nothing to do. And yes, walk around Jurong point as well with granny. Jurong point is as big as hell. lol. Seriously, Im sick of town. gah! Boyfriend please bring me somewhere else! Anywhere interesting in Singapore that u can suggest me to go? -.-'

Not forgetting about today. Its Thursday! I cant wait to meet boyfriend tmr. =] Hopefully I get to meet my Babes this Saturday. Miss them so much. Dee is busy with work now and Im like rotting at home. heh!

My 18th Birthday is coming sooooooon! I cant wait for it. But sad to say that Boyfriend is not sure if he gets to take a leave on my birthday itself. Gah! Hopefully girlfriends will be free on my Birthday itself. =[

Okay done, goodbye!

2008-12-17T21:14:00.001+08:00

Thanks for the relink people.

Appreciate it so much!

Well, Ive decided to leave the past and start a new.

Will be deleting that blog pretty soon.

Yeah, I never wanna recall all those pain that Ive been thru.

And yes! Im happy with my life now. =]